Sunday, May 01, 2011

hmm...

if for a long stretch of time, it feels like you've been getting up from the wrong side of the bed, maybe the truth is that you have been getting into the wrong bed!


Itni to humari yaari na thi ki milne chale aaye
Par taqdeer ki bhi majboori thi
Aakhir koi to bahana chahiye tha
Tumse milneka


An overwhelmed minds knows not a sensible sentence...


On-the-spot running does not get anyone anywhere....


The whole real estate industry survives on making people invest their todays in dreams, beliefs and imaginations, visualisations as far removed from real(i)ty as possible and as close to realty as possible..


I am dis-oriented...does that mean i am off all things oriental?


indelible

the eye
unfocusses
on presents
clouded by
images of the past
chimeras in the mind
arguments
counter-arguments
wins
losses
noises in the head
drowning out
weak
watery
shaky
assurances

the number game

One I
sidled up
tried hard to snuggle
into
One YOU

but
one YOU
did not
want me TOO

alone

shattered pieces
lovingly put together
by me

colored canvases
forgotten
thrown

pens discarded
writings torn
scattered in the wind

pasts carried like shrouds
on solitary shoulders
bent under the weight
of solitariness

pre-fixed me

un-wrapped
un-raveled
un-burdened
me

re-softened
re-believing
re-discovered
me

sepia toned stirrings

like a yellowed letter
words peeped out
and shook awake
those minutes
those hours
those days

just like that

just like that
off lists
off invitations
off inclusions
off shared thoughts
plans
actions
ideas
discussions
just like that

like drawings of a childish hand
on fast receding sand on the sea shore
i drew
and lost
and drew
and lost
just like that

i must grow up
the sea has beaten me today
i shall never draw on the sand again
and watch it being rubbed off
just like that

Greed

more..more..
i smile & rejoice..
yet more...more

gains do not replace losses
getting does not replete losing
gains do not fill the hands...that want more..more

a yawning void
more..more
each day, each thought
where? how?
i lose more...more

gone.empty.
scratching at empty spaces with cloying nails
more...more
bleeding gashes in empty spaces
looking to be filled
more..more
yet again